I'm still here

Well, I've actually gained a 1/2 pound in the last two weeks. And considering everything that happened, I'm relieved. We went out for a celebratory birthday dinner on Nov 8th and then my Dad passed away on Nov 9th, the night before my actual birthday. So, it's been a whirlwind since last Sunday. People were so caring and generous. Food pretty much poured in my Mom's front door. And I didn't really worry about what I was eating. So, I'm trying to get back to a normal routine and trying to get back to carb counting. It makes it easier since I've only gained 1/2 a pound, but Thanksgiving is coming.

Wednesday Weigh In

I was relieved and surprised to see a loss of 1.5 pounds this morning. I have been eating cake that was left over from the baptism. Eating cake has been the worst thing I've been doing. Thankfully, the cake is almost gone! I've also been eating too many carbs since Sunday. And I can feel it. My body feels stiffer and puffy. If that makes sense to anyone....I still need to check out the gym by my house....won't happen until later this week. My husband is out of town and I'm a single mom for the week.

Hope everyone had a successful week!

10/31 food journal

Happy Halloween!

AM Snack
Fiber One Protein Bar cal: 150 fat: 4.5 carb: 28g fiber: 9 net carb: 19
Coffee w/2 TBSP creamer cal: 70 fat: 3 carb: 10g fiber: 0g net carb: 10g

Breakfast
2 egg cups (1 egg/1 egg white, little bit of cheddar cheese)
Fiber One Yogurt cal: 80 fat: 0 carb: 19g fiber: 5g net carb: 14g

Lunch
1 cup Veg Beef Soup (Whole Foods)
4 oz turkey breast
2/3 c couscous
1/4 cup mixed veg
12 oz can Root Beer
3/4 c Apple Cinnamon Granola cal: 450 fat: 21 carb: 59g fiber: 6g net carb: 53g
(from Whole Foods Grocery Store) ***it's a bit high in fat and calories but does have 10g of protein

Snack
1 med apple
2 celery stalks w/ 2 TBSP cream cheese
1/4 c raisins

Dinner
2 bowls homemade chicken soup
2 crackers
1/2 ham sandwich w/ little mayo & spicy mustard
8 oz 1% milk
1 oz pumpkin seeds

Dessert....it IS Halloween
Everything is in the "fun" size (read....very small)
1 - twix
3 - kit kat
2 - milk dud
2 - m&m

10/30 food journal

7:15 am
Fiber One Protein Bar cal: 150 fat: 4.5 carb: 28g fiber: 9 net carb: 19
Coffee w/2 TBSP creamer cal: 70 fat: 3 carb: 10g fiber: 0g net carb: 10g
Sugar Free Hot Chocolate cal: 50 fat: 0 carb: 10g fiber: 0g net carb: 10g

9:30 am
2 egg cups (1 egg/1 egg white, little bit of cheddar cheese, 2 cherry toms)
2 oz scrapple
Fiber One Yogurt cal: 80 fat: 0 carb: 19g fiber: 5g net carb: 14g

11:00 am
1 pkt oatmeal cal: 160 fat: 3 carb: 29g fiber: 6g net carb: 23g

1:00 pm
2/3 c pasta
1/4 cup steamed broccoli
small salad
about 1 oz shred cheese
2TBSP Olive Oil & Vin cal: 150 fat: 16 carb: 1g fiber: 0g net carb: 1g
1/2 C fruit cocktail
cup decaf hot tea

***OK, so the HR department had a fall "bake-off" contest and there's 10 different desserts sitting in the lunch room. I know they're there and I know I shouldn't eat them. However, I'm beginnign to obsess about them. That's just not good. So, I think I'll go in and sample a couple. That way I might be able to focus on something other than food!
***I feel much better now! :-)

Dinner
2.5 baked chicken breast tenders
1 cup creamed corn
large salad
2 TBSP o&v dress
1 oz cheddar ch

Snack
2 TBSP peanut butter
1 med apple

***asked Husband to bring home ice cream. And he was going to. I really didn't want it, but felt like I should have it. I love icecream. So much so, it's a habit. The light bulb went off when he agreed to get it. I gave him some grief for agreeing to get it. He knows better! But he's an enabler when it comes to icecream. See, I won't go buy it myself, I'm too embarrassed. But, he'll get it for me. So, I told him not to bring it home. I didn't really want it, I certainly don't need it and I had the dessert sampling this afternoon. I read a blog post this week (see link below) that made a good point....having a slip up (dessert this afternoon) doesn't give you a license to slip up the rest of the day. I've had that outlook for way too long. I would eat something for lunch that I shouldn't and figured the day was ruined, so I wouldn't worry about what I ate the rest of the day/week/month. So, saying no to icecream was a step in the right direction. Am I giving up icecream? Absolutely not! But, I'll try to be a little wiser about when I have it.

http://escapefromobesity.blogspot.com/2008/10/every-bite-counts.html

10/29 - Food Journal

I'm going to try and track my food here and see how it goes...I'm not sure if I'm going to like doing it in this format.

Any suggestions for low carb / low fat snack item, that has protein?

Notes
Net carbs = total carbs less fiber
Fiber helps lower the impact of sugars and starches on blood glucose

I also drink at least 64 oz of water each day, usually more. I have a HUGE jug that I carry around with me. I get made fun of, but I know I'm getting the amount of water I'm supposed to. :-)

7:15 am
Fiber One Protein Bar cal: 150 fat: 4.5 carb: 28g fiber: 9 net carb: 19
1 Reese's PB Cup cal: 220 fat: 13 carb: 24g fiber: 1 net carb: 23
Coffee w/2 TBSP creamer cal: 70 fat: 3 carb: 10g fiber: 0g net carb: 10g

9:00 am
2 egg cups (1 egg/1 egg white, little bit of cheddar cheese, 2 cherry toms)
2 oz scrapple (yes, I eat scrapple) :-)
(I don't have the nutrional values for breakfast)

10:30 am
1 pkt oatmeal cal: 160 fat: 3 carb: 29g fiber: 6g net carb: 23g

12:15 pm
1/2 cucumber
6 cherry toms
1 tbsp salad dressing cal: 150 fat: 16 carb: 1g fiber: 0 net carb: 1
1 c pasta w/ mushrooms, a few peas & red sauce
1/2 c fruit cocktail
12 oz caff free/ diet soda

4:15 pm (I'm starving...missed 3pm snack time)
1 oz cheddar cheese cal: 110 fat: 9 carb: 1g fiber: 0g net carb: 1g
1 medium apple
1/4 cup sunflower seeds cal: 160 fat: 13 carb: 7g fiber: 3g net carb: 4g
***so this is my very low in carb snack (yay) but my very high in fat snack

6:3o pm
8 oz filet mignon
1 cup steamed broccoli
1 med baked potato
2 TBSP sour cream
spray butter
8 oz 1% milk cal: 110 fat: 2.5 carb: 13g fiber: 0g net carb: 13g

10:30 pm
1 pkt oatmeal cal: 160 fat: 3 carb: 29g fiber: 6g net carb: 23g
I TBSP peanut butter cal: 100 fat: 8 carb: 6g fiber: 2g net carb: 4g

Wednesday weigh in

**********Correction********
I only gained 1.5 pounds. For some reason, I thought I had lost a total of 4, which gave me a different starting weight this morning. So, since I only lost 3 total pounds, I only gained 1.5. Sometimes, I'm grateful that my memory isn't all that great.
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I wish I could have used yesterday's number. But unfortunately, I can't. And what point would that serve? It certainly wouldn't be honest! So, I'm up 2.5 pounds (instead of the .5 yesterday).

Here's the good news....I know what I'm doing wrong, I just need to use a little more control and stay focused.

Here's the bad news.... Friday is Halloween and I love peanut butter cups! And Sunday my daughter is getting baptized, followed by a brunch buffet. (there will be plenty of options to make healthy choices, I just have to choose them)

One final note.....don't buy your favorite halloween candy to distribute to the kiddies....buy something you don't like. Why have temptation staring you in the face?

Hope everyone else had success this week! Go OSB!!

Confessions of a Mad Woman

I think I've done it this time. I'm not sure what my problem is. I'm not sure what my motivation is. And at times, I am self defeating. Yesterday, my dinner included half a bag of corn chips, half a jar of cheese sauce, a large pile of cookies and some pudding. That's enough to make you sick. And it did. That's right people, I actually vomited. I can't tell you the last time that happened. I think I was a kid. (excluding crazy nights of partying in my twenties)

I knew it wasn't good for me. I knew I was blowing my healthy eating. Yet, I couldn't stop myself. I think I did it on purpose. And maybe it has taught me a lesson. I felt horrible last night! (physically) My stomach was in so much pain. And I'm still a bit unsettled today. Let this be a lesson to me! I don't want to go there again. Not to mention, I am breastfeeding and it can't be any good for the baby.

I fully anticipate a weight gain this week, because of this weekend. I do really well during the week, but I can't get a handle on the weekends. So, I'm back on track today and will try to be positive. But I must tell you, I am a miserable person today!

On a higher note, I am going to check out a gym 5 minutes from my house. Mind you, I already have a contract with a gym near my work (for another 14 mos). But I came to the realization that I HATE that gym! And that's only one of the reason's why I don't go. I'm itching to pick up some free weights. Love me some free weights! I used to tell my husband, "don't tell me I'm beautiful, tell me I'm strong". There's something motivating in pumping iron!